Out with the old, in with the new.
Officially pushing myself out of my comfort zone and trying to get out of the weird transition of fashion blogging and "modeling". I really do want to further my career in modeling and I want to get emotional, dark, and close with my photos. I want my photos to tell a story and to have a meaning. I don't want someone to just look at my photo and see a pretty face, but I want someone to look at my photo and feel the emotions and follow along with my story. So thank you Miko, for helping me transition out and getting me started. I'm going to start writing out my thoughts on my blog now, just so you guys can take a little look at what I'm thinking. It can be happy, random, stupid, or plain. But that's okay, it's my blog and I choose to do what I want with it.
Hope you guys enjoy the new theme!
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It's amazing how quick emotions can ruin a friendship, relationship, and a human being. I'm consistently battling with my own emotions daily. It sucks how quickly my mood can change and how I can go from extremely happy to depressed in a snap. I'm like a light switch, and it fucking sucks. I struggle daily with Bipolar disorder and anger management. It's so hard trying to keep a conversation with others without getting irritated by little things. Maybe I'm just too sensitive, but I'm really trying to cope with it. I understand it's not okay to snap at people but there's a part of me that finds relaxation in getting angry. Is this normal? I'm so easily frustrated; whether it's an uneven cut of paper with a pair of scissors, or when I drop my pencil in class and it makes a loud tapping noise on the floor. I get anxious when it comes to talking to people one on one, and it recently has been getting so much worse. I stutter, and I get anxious because I stuttered and I feel embarrassed because a nineteen year old girl can't even keep her shit together.